Getting up around 4 AM here, it is always in vague twilight nowadays. It's only a month and a few days until summer solstice comes, I realize. In such a situation, a phrase of a psalm often comes up in my mind; "I wake up dawn". It is a phrase telling how hopeful we are for the day coming up. Even passing the days of hope in youth, I still recall of it. I must be thankful to have another day I could spend freely.
Having breakast I prepared for myself, I always wonder what to do in the farm. Summer vegtables have been planted. Some more to come. Bugs are getting active and ready to eat young plants. No pesticides used. With adequate compost and rice bran, hopefully they grow faster than being eaten by those bugs! A lot of peas are being harvested. They taste sweet. They are boiled for salad. Egg binding with proper seasoning is also good. Onions are getting ripe as well. Potatoes are also going to be harvested in a few weeks.
They say socialization is important for mental health in the elderly. However, becoming free from things and relationships means to be solitary in a sense. Solitude and socialization seem to be contradictory in life of the elderly. It is a natural course in life. Whenever I listen to the late piano sonatas of Beethoven, I know he must spent the last chapter of his life in solitude. That's why he could compose those brilliant works of freedom. In the 2nd movement of the last one, Arietta, he took the style of variation. Variation always sound like life itself. Changing freely with the main theme in the core. This movement ends recalling the motif of the main theme as if it still went on. As if vanishing into thin air. No obsession of conclusion in the end as with most of his other works. He has composed Diabelli Variation after this sonata. But this was the very last sonata he composed. It is not easy for everyone to live like him. Still, may I be able to accept elderly as it is!
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