My Father's 13th Anniversary

It will be my father's 13th anniversary in 3 days. My sister has written to me telling she had been reading the papers for application of pension of military he left to her. It says he has served in the army from 1939 to 1945, that is, from 20 to 26 years of age. His youth, which could have been most brilliant time in his life, has been forced to serve for the military nationalism.

He has been sent to China where he experienced the hell of the war and was almost dying in the battle. It was his regret that Japanese troops had done all criminal behavior to Chinese citizens over there. He has repeatedly told us we had owed much to them. It was his dream to travel Chine for a trip of apology, which did not come true.

Coming back from China, he was luckily assigned to an educational division of the army in this area. It meant he had been spared going to abroad again in the end of the war. Later, he might feel guilty for those having lost their lives abroad on behalf of him.

After the WWII, he has become a firm pacifist. It was due not only to his belief in Christianity but also to his cruel experience during the war. He must face to the problem of emperor system when he searched the cause of the war. It was the reason why the people have approved the invasion to the neighbor countries based on the aberrant idea of elitism. In the present time, studying of the reason why our society, at least, a part of the politics, is heading back to the regime before WWII, I feel we could not go without dealing with the problem of emperor system as a quasi religion which leads us to the nightmare idea of nationalism. I sometimes could not help smiling at myself reading the same kind of books as my father used to and thinking in the same way as he did.    

On July 1st 3 years ago, the collective self defense was approved by the government, which has been the purported reason why a nation started any war in the past. Whatever the government might explain of that change in explanation of our constitution, it meant our country would go for war abroad in the future. I often wonder what my father would say about this situation.

Remembering of him, I would do what I could to protest against such movement in the politics. It was a bit muggy morning when I and my wife have been called for his passing by the hospital staff. It has come on all of sudden. How lonely he has felt when passing away. I would take over his pacifist position for the token of my apology for not being with him at that time. It is also important what a country we would leave to the next generation. Even if I could do little for that.


  1. Lots of bitter and hard-earned wisdom in these words. Luckily, I never had to fight in a war, but most everyone has said there are only anti-war stories from those who have. You are a good man, Shin-san.

    1. Thanks, Jim. How to make peace come true should be the problem. It must be not a static but a dynamic process. Remembering of my father, I would do make effort.

  2. Thank you, Shin.
    I am a little older than you are and I remember the extreme nationalist propaganda to which I was exposed on this side.
    I was too young to be a part of active hostility, but was exposed to it every day.
    I too am a pacifist.
    My very best to you.
    Don...K2KQ...ex W2UFT

    1. Don,

      Thanks for the comment. I feel the pacifism we have got after WWII are going away like an ebb tide. In stead, the spirit of discrimination and hatred is taking it over everywhere in the world. Since they shouted the war against terrorism, there have been increasing number of victims due to terrorism and the related war. Something is seemingly out of order.

      Getting older, I become more and more anxious about the situation. Even though there must be little time left for me, I would do what I can.

      Live in peace. See you on the air again soon.


  3. Shin

    My father is 96 and was an RAF pilot in WW2, flying all sorts of aircraft including Spitfires and Hurricanes. His last squadron used Tempests to accompany bombers over Germany at the end of the war. His planes also straffed trains, which he says he regrets because civilian lives were definitely lost. After the war he went to South Africa to work on the mines but didnt want his children to be raised in apartheid, so returned to England when I was 8.
    In South Africa he discovered Theosophy and became a vegetarian and outspoken pacifist.
    He hardly talks about the war, even though signing off as a flight lieutenant with a record that many would boast about. He once told me that England had no choice but to fight the evils of fascism, but that after that war we should have learned by now to avoid all others.

    He would have like to have met your father, who was a very good man

    1. A nice story, John. Liberalism as well as pacifism have been inherited to you from him. I wish I could see your father. Mine would have been 98 years old if he were still alive. Both of them have lived the same harsh time in the modern history. Have great time with your parents in UK.