11/28/2023

Jacqueline du Pres and Elgar's cello concerto

Jacqueline du Pres is one of the most renowned cellists. She is often remembered together with Elgar's cello concerto.


Here is her performance of that piece with Philharmonia Orchestra conducted by her husband at that time, Daniel Barenboim, recorded in 1970. 


https://andantemoderato.com/elgar-cello-concerto-du-pre-barenboim/?fbclid=IwAR36Kskj1dCDaAtqQ651otiSa96wptGZ41Q_gYeUWLW8GwDQHwKMqvbcaAo


As introduced in the article, this concerto is tinted with deep melancholy probably due to the tragic war just before it was composed. Du Pres was in the height of happiness since she had married with Barenboim a few years prior to this performance. She sometimes smiled gently at him on the podium while playing this piece. That sure makes us feel heartbroken considering of her tragic future in a year. She has developed symptoms of multiple sclerosis then, which ultimately urged her to retire in 4 years from this rendition and killed her at age of 42.


Her performance is quite emotional. Listen to the beginning phrase in Adagio with deep portamento on C string. This emotion in her performance goes throughout this piece. I was overwhelmed her expression when I listened to this performance in my med school days. How could such a girl play cello in that way! It was in mid '70s and when she has started struggling with multiple sclerosis. I did not know of her struggle those days at all. In 1987, I still remember hearing of the news on her death in mass media. It took me, however, years to understand what life she had spent. She is an unforgettable cellist for me.


This concerto is melancholic in dual meaning to me and to most her fans.

11/27/2023

A big tree would go away today

As previously shown, there has been a Japanese Judas tree on the western side of the garden next to a neighbor. It has not been planted by us but has grown spontaneously since we built this house. So it is over 40 years old. It has grown a lot of branches with plenty leaves. It looked magnificient in summer like this photo taken several years ago. The leaves turned golden yellow in fall.


We were afraid it could fall on the ground with high wind and could damage the neighbor's home. We asked a gardener to cut the main branches and reduce its size. In a few years, it has recovered its beautiful outlook. I was worrying of an accident with the tree again. 

I have asked the same gardener to cut it at the base. He asked me if the leaves were all fallen? I wondered if they would have been obstacles to cut it. He answered no but we should enjoy its last appearance with beautiful leaves. I noticed I have not been careful about it and, by this time, all leaves were fallen. I was moved with his love for the tree. Leaves turning yellow is a gift to us in his view. This is the photo of the tree taken this morning.


In close up view, the skin of the tree is desquamated. At first, I thought it had been a sign of aging but the gardener told me it was a sign of metabolism for growth. Honestly, I felt a bit guilty at my decision to cut it even it was still actively growing. It should have grown at the center of the garden and could have grown up 20 or 30meters! 


Miscellaneous photos.

A persimmon tree at the south eastern corner of the garden. Full of the fruits. Is it because our cat is making regular patrol everyday that crows won't come to enjoy them yet?
 

A magnolia tree looks colorful. It has undergone lopping off big big branches earlier this spring. It could have been much gorgeous with colorful leaves. Next spring it may grow much bigger and bear a lot of white flowers. 


Azarea at the entrance. Beautifully reddened. 


Looking around the garden, I feel we have grown up together with these trees. At age 40 or 50 years, all of sudden, I became feel closer to those trees. Actually, they looked like family members to me. When my parents have moved here almost at the same time as we did, my father used to care for trees earnestly. At first, I gazed at him working with them. In several years, I found myself to have become a tree lover as well. It might be a heritage or could be a sign of aging. When we feel losing the capability as a living being, we might feel closer to and fond of such trees living long.









 

11/24/2023

Tempura again

Tempura again a couple of weeks ago. The left dish was oyster while the right was pumpkin and sweet potato.

One of the purposes of this menu was to consume pumpkin. Dozens of them were harvested a month or two ago. Some of them were given to a friend of mine. But still a lot of them were left and seemingly are going to be decayed before being cooked. I should have sent some to my relatives etc. But it could be, I am afraid, unwelcome favor to them. I hesitated sending them to nephew/niece living in Tokyo. Next summer, I should downsize the farming of pumpkin. 

Sweetpotato could last long, possibly, until next spring. Some of them could be parent fruits next spring. I have found a cooking way to steam them in an electrical jar. It seems important to cook them gradually from the room temp to the high. It is to help changing the starch to maltose. This could be cooked as a material for miso soup as well. A useful and delicious vegetable. 
 


 

Autumn potatoes were harvested yesterday. Pretty good amount. It will be stored in the house and will be cooked little by little.


Oysters were a bit too small but tasted good. Maybe, bigger ones will be available soon. I would try frying them then.


I am still busy planting seedles of onions. Otherwise, the farm is getting quiet.

11/21/2023

The 45th anniversary

Shyly, I would tell that it would be our 45th anniversary of marriage tomorrow. It is still like yesterday when we stood at the entrance of the tiny resident dormitory house 45 years ago. Everything was for us. Having learned a lot of things in life and as a doctor, we have spent the years. I still owe much to my wife for her dedication to the family and myself while I still feel ashamed not having carrying out my responsibility as a husband and a father. 


This year, her father has passed away. All of my parents have gone for now. It will be our turn for the next, I should say. Now she has finished her career as a psychiatrist. It is the time for us to enjoy retirement at home now. We never know how long this Indian summer days last for us. Cherishing every moment but not worrying for the future is most important for us. 


Again, here is the poem by Browning. Its truthfullness is compelling even more to me. I would spend the time left for us with this idea. 


  Grow Old

Grow old along with me!
The best is yet to be,
The last of life, for which the first was made:
Our times are in His hand
Who saith 'A whole I planned,
Youth shows but half; trust God: see all nor be afraid!

I would get a cake to celebrate today. And a dish of salad. The main dish will be the beef and potatoes already served last night!


Always the same photo of my wife taken 45 years ago. She is still this image even now. Even with a bit more grey thing on head, she remains as this in my consciousness.




11/19/2023

Taking a piece of cookie could be hazardous

When was it that I became feeling hunger oftener in 2 or 3 hours after meal than before? Maybe, in 50 or 60 years of age. I could not help guessing it is a kind of aging. Blood glucose level should be high enough then. It might be due to insulin resistance even though I have not taken the blood test yet.

Insulin resistance causes low sugar level within each cell. If it is in the hunger center of brain, we might feel of hunger, even if high blood sugar is maintained.

Recently, I have learned that such high blood sugar causes glycolysis in certain cells, which result in more oxygenation through glycolysis cycle. This process might be related with aging itself. Recent studies seem to indicate it could be a process of Alzheimer's disease as well. Of course, this disease could never be explained only by that abnormal sugar metabolism.

If we try to normalize the process, we should cut the total caloric intake by 30%; too much weight reduction couls affect immunity or the other functions of body. It should be done cautiously based on BMI etc, I believe. Body weight reduction is quite hard in daily routine for us. Cutting caloric intake as much as possible, exsercising may reduce insulin resistance as the text book of diabetes says. Aging process itself is diabetogenic and we should be careful not to get it. 

This is a memorandum for myself. We could never avoid aging but could slow it upcoming. Taking a piece of cookie may be hazardous to us. I know if I put up with hunger for a while, it may disappear soon and I could wait for the meal. Diabetes or Alzheimer's disease is too common in elderly. I should keep it in mind. 

It is a fun for me to learn news regarding such subject as aging which I am experiencing myself at present. Never stop learning until I die.

Two guys unforgettable with their kindness

Before I forget it, I would write this small but heartwarming episode.


When the aftermath of the nuclear power plant accident was still here and the radioactive substance contamination could spread much more, we were informed

less than we needed about what went on. The US military was going to announce that the US citizens should evacuate farther than 50 miles of radius from the nuclear plants. It was withdrawn soon, though, possibly due to political reasons. They said there had been no such contamination going in the area. But the devastated power plants could have fallen down or could have lost cooling water very easily. The embassy personnels of certain western countries were once told to evacuate to the Western Japan away from the devastated nuclear plants. Being only about 80 miles south west of the nuclear plants, I was feeling that the basics of my life was being collapsed every day.


In such a situation, a ham radio friend, Dave W0FBI has told me he and his wife were ready to visit our country and to help us. He was a retired physician having served in the US army for a long time and was in Japan for 4 years. He seemed quite serious with that proposal. Even though it has not come true, his words was one of the most touching and encouraging proposals those days. Unforatunately, he went silent key due to lymphoma in a couple of years.


Here.


The other person whom I could never forget was Doug ZP6CW. He has been a great CW operator and has been very active on the air. I used to see him often on 15m in our morning hours. The path to Paraguay was always open there even in the bottom of the sun spot cycle. When this place was threatened with contamination by fallout soon after the accident, he abruptly told me to come to Paraguay. His unexpected words of invitation has surprised me a lot. Honestly, it sounded like a kidding to me at first. He was, however, quite serious with that proposal. Of course, I could not leave here throwing all my responsibilities and life itself then. But his seriousness was still unforgettable in my memory. 


In the other post regarding "old QSLs", there was his card in the photo. David N1EA has reminded me of Doug as a superb CW operator. He used to activate a lot of countries shown in the news of his passing from QCWA quoted below. It also reminded me of his kind words in 2011.


Here


So this is the story of two guys whom I could never forget. Through ham radio, I have run across with a lot of people, remarkable as well as respectable with their kindness and personality. These two guys belong to the best people among those in my memory.

11/12/2023

Again death and life goes side by side

One day, I was curious to know how Yoshino cherry trees, the most common species in cherry trees, could live long while they are all single clone plants developed in the end of Edo era. Any biological species of single clone could live only for the same life span and may die at the same time. They seem to live long enough so far. Maybe, decades of years or even longer.


In searching the life span of cherry trees, I have learned that trees are living death and life at the same time. In the main trunk of a tree, the central portion is continuously dying while the outer layer is in neogenesis. Two phases of living go side by side. Death may overwhelm life in decades or centuries, that is, the total death of the individual being. It would be the end of the individual tree life.


At first, it seemed to me that it was different from animals including human beings.  As for human beings, under the consciousness, it seemed our life is integrated into living being. It seemed to be no such dual life system in our body as trees.


Several days ago, however, it has dawned on me that our body udergoes continuous change from life to death in microscopic level. The skin or the GI tract epithelium is undergoing continuous dying while new epithelium is covering the dead tissue. Most human tissues or cells are metabolized at certain span. It is caused by apoptosis in single cell level. Every cell, if it could renew itself, would die after certain times of cell division. It is destined to die in certain time with fixed number of cell division. It brings aging to our body. Consciousness might undergo subtle but steady change of aging. We may die from such aging process while the others may succumb from the external causes like infection. It is important we are programed to death and are living death and life at the same time without being conscious of that.  


Considering of such continuous transition from life to death in us, I have remembered of Toru Takemitsu. He has lived death and life side by side and has told that to Seiji Ozawa at a dialogue with him.


https://nuttycellist-unknown.blogspot.com/2022/02/life-and-death-go-side-by-side.html


We live under an implausible hypothesis that we are continuously existing on the side of life. However, we are living death and life side by side as Takemitsu told. 


Needless to say, that is why we should cherish every moment in our lives. The older I become, the more I am convinced of this fact, even though we often forget of the reality that our life goes death and life side by side.

11/10/2023

"Always On The Side Of Egg"

Japanese renowned novelist, Haruki Murakami, has been awarded "Jerusalem Award" in 2009. He has made an impressive acceptance speech titled "Always on the side of egg".


I am deeply moved by his speech and would like to quote it here at this time when a tragedy is going on in Gaza. 


I know some people would insist we should remember what Hamas has done to Israeli people on Oct 7th. Those killed by them and their family members should be always remembered. But, since the Oslo agreement in 1993, as a whole, it was the Paletinine people who suffered from invasion and military attack by Israeli. The side of egg has been on Palestine side. 


Revenge with military power may result in further conflict. The vicious circle will continue endlessly. They should call time on this wrong spiral by any means. 

 

Quote;


 2009 “Jerusalem Prize” Remarks: 


Always On The Side Of Egg
by Haruki Murakami

Good evening. I have come to Jerusalem today as a novelist, which is to say as a professional spinner of lies.

Of course, novelists are not the only ones who tell lies. Politicians do it, too, as we all know. Diplomats and generals tell their own kinds of lies on occasion, as do used car salesmen, butchers and builders. The lies of novelists differ from others, however, in that no one criticizes the novelist as immoral for telling lies. Indeed, the bigger and better his lies and the more ingeniously he creates them, the more he is likely to be praised by the public and the critics. Why should that be?

My answer would be this: namely, that by telling skillful lies--which is to say, by making up fictions that appear to be true--the novelist can bring a truth out to a new place and shine a new light on it. In most cases, it is virtually impossible to grasp a truth in its original form and depict it accurately. This is why we try to grab its tail by luring the truth from its hiding place, transferring it to a fictional location, and replacing it with a fictional form. In order to accomplish this, however, we first have to clarify where the truth-lies within us, within ourselves. This is an important qualification for making up good lies.

Today, however, I have no intention of lying. I will try to be as honest as I can. There are only a few days in the year when I do not engage in telling lies, and today happens to be one of them.

So let me tell you the truth. In Japan a fair number of people advised me not to come here to accept the Jerusalem Prize. Some even warned me they would instigate a boycott of my books if I came. The reason for this, of course, was the fierce fighting that was raging in Gaza. The U.N. reported that more than a thousand people had lost their lives in the blockaded city of Gaza, many of them unarmed citizens--children and old people.

Any number of times after receiving notice of the award, I asked myself whether traveling to Israel at a time like this and accepting a literary prize was the proper thing to do, whether this would create the impression that I supported one side in the conflict, that I endorsed the policies of a nation that chose to unleash its overwhelming military power. Neither, of course, do I wish to see my books subjected to a boycott.

Finally, however, after careful consideration, I made up my mind to come here. One reason for my decision was that all too many people advised me not to do it. Perhaps, like many other novelists, I tend to do the exact opposite of what I am told. If people are telling me-- and especially if they are warning me-- “Don’t go there,” “Don’t do that,” I tend to want to “go there” and “do that”. It’s in my nature, you might say, as a novelist. Novelists are a special breed. They cannot genuinely trust anything they have not seen with their own eyes or touched with their own hands.

And that is why I am here. I chose to come here rather than stay away. I chose to see for myself rather than not to see. I chose to speak to you rather than to say nothing.

Please do allow me to deliver a message, one very personal message. It is something that I always keep in mind while I am writing fiction. I have never gone so far as to write it on a piece of paper and paste it to the wall: rather, it is carved into the wall of my mind, and it goes something like this:

“Between a high, solid wall and an egg that breaks against it, I will always stand on the side of the egg.”

Yes, no matter how right the wall may be and how wrong the egg, I will stand with the egg. Someone else will have to decide what is right and what is wrong; perhaps time or history will do it. But if there were a novelist who, for whatever reason, wrote works standing with the wall, of what value would such works be?

What is the meaning of this metaphor? In some cases, it is all too simple and clear. Bombers and tanks and rockets and white phosphorus shells are that high wall. The eggs are the unarmed civilians who are crushed and burned and shot by them. This is one meaning of the metaphor.

But this is not all. It carries a deeper meaning. Think of it this way. Each of us is, more or less, an egg. Each of us is a unique, irreplaceable soul enclosed in a fragile shell. This is true of me, and it is true of each of you. And each of us, to a greater or lesser degree, is confronting a high, solid wall. The wall has a name: it is “The System.” The System is supposed to protect us, but sometimes it takes on a life of its own, and then it begins to kill us and cause us to kill others--coldly, efficiently, systematically.

I have only one reason to write novels, and that is to bring the dignity of the individual soul to the surface and shine a light upon it. The purpose of a story is to sound an alarm, to keep a light trained on the System in order to prevent it from tangling our souls in its web and demeaning them. I truly believe it is the novelist’s job to keep trying to clarify the uniqueness of each individual soul by writing stories--stories of life and death, stories of love, stories that make people cry and quake with fear and shake with laughter. This is why we go on, day after day, concocting fictions with utter seriousness.

My father passed away last year at the age of ninety. He was a retired teacher and a part-time Buddhist priest. When he was in graduate school in Kyoto, he was drafted into the army and sent to fight in China. As a child born after the war, I used to see him every morning before breakfast offering up long, deeply-felt prayers at the small Buddhist altar in our house. One time I asked him why he did this, and he told me he was praying for the people who had died in the battlefield. He was praying for all the people who died, he said, both ally and enemy alike. Staring at his back as he knelt at the altar, I seemed to feel the shadow of death hovering around him.

My father died, and with him he took his memories, memories that I can never know. But the presence of death that lurked about him remains in my own memory. It is one of the few things I carry on from him, and one of the most important.

I have only one thing I hope to convey to you today. We are all human beings, individuals transcending nationality and race and religion, and we are all fragile eggs faced with a solid wall called The System. To all appearances, we have no hope of winning. The wall is too high, too strong--and too cold. If we have any hope of victory at all, it will have to come from our believing in the utter uniqueness and irreplaceability of our own and others’ souls and from our believing in the warmth we gain by joining souls together.

Take a moment to think about this. Each of us possesses a tangible, living soul. The System has no such thing. We must not allow the System to exploit us. We must not allow the System to take on a life of its own. The System did not make us: we made the System.

That is all I have to say to you.

I am grateful to have been awarded the Jerusalem Prize. I am grateful that my books are being read by people in many parts of the world. And I would like to express my gratitude to the readers in Israel. You are the biggest reason why I am here. And I hope we are sharing something, something very meaningful. And I am glad to have had the opportunity to speak to you here today. Thank you very much.

11/04/2023

QSLs

Still busily sorting out things in the storage shed. A lot of old books or even notebooke I took at the med school. One of them is that for neurological anatomy. The professor wrote fine and beautiful schema of neurologicl anatomy on the board. We, students, were wholeheartedly copy them on own notebook. It was the very first lecture we had at a lecture theater at the faculty. A bit different from expectation for a medicl class. However, we were keeping the note without thinking anything. The notebook clearly reminds me of those days.

One of the big problems in clearing the shelves was what to do with QSL cards in several, even more than ten, cardboard boxes. From all over the world. Unfortunately, I could never remember anyone of the senders. I just remembered of Joe AH2G complaining of a lot of boxful QSL cards. He didn't need any more but had a lot more sent by the bureau without rest. Maybe, most cards were for so called rubber stamps. Since the development of internet has changed the essence of amateur radio, if not all, the QSL card means quite different from pre internet era. 

I decided to discard them all except for several ones. One of the exceptions is the QSL cards from FOC members. In 1988, I could join the club and, for the next several years, I have been quite active talking to the members all over the world. I am not choosing them for the membership but they were almost the only gang I could enjoy chatting those days. This photo shows some of them. There must be others in the other file cases. I could specifically imagine of the operators behind those cards. They are not only verification of QSOs. 


So things are sorted out and I will be more disengaged from the past.